5 years ago I was in a place where I'd stopped listening to what God wanted for me and was trying to do it all on my own. Not the best thing to do when your God is a jealous God and knows what it takes to bring you back into the fold. He sent a whale. For 3 months I felt swallowed whole and desperately trying to stay afloat both literally and figuratively. I was going to have to walk away from my home and financial security and there was nothing I could do about it. Well, at least not on my own.
But, every time I felt myself running out of breath, He was there with a buoy. He found me a home to land in that healed my heart in so many ways. He repaired relationships I had neglected and formed new ones with people who could encourage and challenge me on the new path my life was taking. I let God know the desires of my heart, and in HIS timing, I found Ben (or Ben found me) and now we have a home to call our own (I'm a girl who has simple dreams). And it's all because when the whale spit me back out, I ran towards God as fast as I could.
You are not hidden
There's never been a moment
You were forgotten
You are not hopeless
Though you have been broken
Your innocence stolen
I hear you whisper underneath your breath
I hear your SOS, your SOS
I will send out an army to find you
It's true, I will rescue you
In the middle of the darkest night
(Rescue - Lauren Daigle)
If you would have told me 5 years ago what my life would like at this very moment, I'd probably have shook my head and called you crazy. But, this life, right now? Is more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. There are still days where the whale feels like it could be looming, but I know how to stop from being swallowed up again.
