Full of ups and downs.
It's so easy to get caught up. Get tired. Overwhelmed. Worn down.
It's in these worn out moments where the doubts creep in.
You're not good enough.
Pretty enough.
Smart enough.
Witty enough.
Talented enough.
Nothing is enough.
People will reassure you that you are enough, but it still doesn't seem enough.
Enough. Enough. Enough.
The world backs up our thinking. You need certain clothes. The hair and make-up to match. The ever-changing must read book list to be considered with it. You have to listen to certain podcasts or watch a certain YouTube channel or you're no longer hip enough. Shop at this store. Eat at this restaurant. Post 500 times a day on this app. Know the lingo. Know the right people.
It leaves you overwhelmed.
And empty feeling.
Sinking.
Surrounded by all this stuff, but none of it matters.
I fall into this trap so often. I care too much what the world thinks. I could easily be described as damaged goods trying to dig myself out of the hole. Time and time again I fail. Surrounded by everything and yet nothing at all.
Time and time again, God comes to my rescue.
No judgement.
No shame.
No condemnation.
Just abundant grace and love.
I am weak. He makes me strong. Lean in. Push out the doubts. Just trust.
There is nothing on this earth that will validate me 100%. I will never feel like I fully belong here. I won't always say the right thing. I won't always be in style. I won't always be up to date on the latest and greatest.
But, I will always strive to improve myself in my Father's eyes.
That's all the validation I need. I am perfect in my Father's eyes. I am enough.
And when I need a visual reminder, I just picture Him showing up at my door a la Love Actually and reminding me that I was made in His image. To be exactly who He intended. And that is enough.
