Let's face it, this Christmas season has felt a little off kilter. It's so easy to be distracted by all those things about Christmas that can weigh us down- shopping, decorations, baking, visiting friends and family. This year my ability to buy any sort of presents is pretty non-existent, all my decorations are hanging out in a storage unit, and I'm letting my mom handle the baking of the Christmas goodies. Most of my friends are married or at least part of a couple and sometimes I feel like they walk on egg shells around me because of what this year has brought in terms of my love life. With everything so different this year, I kind of felt like I belonged on the island of misfit toys. With all the earthly things about Christmas stripped away, this year, I'm trying harder to focus on the true reason for this holiday. God loves the misfits.
I'm learning to be ok with being a misfit. My reward isn't here on earth. It isn't about me and what I get/have. Sometimes I get so stuck on what I'm without, that I forget how much He has already given me and things could probably be a lot worse. While I would still like a second shot at happily married, a chance to go overboard on the Christmas decorations and gift shopping, and so on and so on, I know it is in His good timing. This whole following someone else's plan thing. Building trust in the unseen. Letting go of the worries and doubts.
I have a lot to be joyful about, I just need to remember to be grateful for it all- no matter how small it may seem. And, I figure that Jesus was the ultimate misfit so I'm in good company.
Here's hoping you all the joy and hope that this Christmas season can bring!
