I wouldn't call myself a control freak, but I don't like surprises. If I'm watching a movie or a show with someone who I know has seen it, I will beg them to tell me how it ends. Going to a movie? I'll check to see if there is a spoiler online to make sure I'm going to like it. New book? You bet I read the last page or two first thing. I want to know how things end. I want to know they're ok. I want to know I'm going to like it.
There's no spoiler site online for life. We don't get to know the future. We don't get to know how our story ends.
It frustrates me.
It can make me anxious.
It's hard to believe that my future is out of my control.
It is in our nature to plan. To want to figure things out. But God's plan is for us to be still. Let him take the reigns.
This is not a call to inaction. It doesn't mean I get to sit in bed all day eating oreos and watching Parenthood (although that sure does sound nice sometimes). I'm still responsible for what I do. I still have a job. Responsibilities. Life here on earth takes effort and he doesn't expect us to leave all the hard work to him. But, when I'm worrying about things...be still. When I have no clue what my future holds and a panic attack is coming on...be still. When all my plans fall apart and things start spinning...be still.
He already knows the outcome.
He already knows the ending.
And the million steps in between that will get me there.
Just be still.
