2015 had a bit of a bumpy start. I found myself in a situation that I've been in before. It is a situation that is out of my control. I don't like it.
I want to escape to a beach to clear my head. Refocus. Recharge.
A beach is not in my near future.
The last time I was in this situation, I handled it less than gracefully. I was spiteful and bitter. Rash.
I am a different person now. God has shaped me into a person I didn't know I could be. This new, God-given, me is desperately trying to work through it in a whole new way.
I am holding my tongue.
I am choosing not to react.
I am praying. A lot.
I am seeking wise counsel.
I have to Be Still. Lean in.
All this to lead me to my one little word for the year 2015: Authentic,
I have a desire to surround myself by reality. Social media makes it far to easy to hide the imperfections.
I serve a very real God. An authentic Savior. There is nothing false about having faith in someone who time and time again extends His perfect and wonderful grace to someone who doesn't always act like they deserve it. (That's how grace works, thankfully).
I want this year to be one of real relationships. People who are willing to call my out when needed. Who give life giving and soul growing wisdom. People with no other expectations other than to be your true friend. I'm letting go of the fake relationships. Of trying to maintain things that aren't there.
I want this year to be one of real experiences. Not doing things for the sake of doing them. Seeking out opportunities to experience life, not just live it.
I want this year to be the year my faith gets even more real. I expect that means things I am afraid of. Letting go of things I continue to cling to even though they are long un-needed. Nothing between me and my God. Stripped down. Face to face. Faith.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.
Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Romans 12:2
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